Sorting Things out

Do you know this feeling? You have been recovering from an illness, you don’t feel ill anymore, but your creativity or productivity has gone away. Your body is functioning again, but your mind is still in recovery mode.

I had this feeling until yesterday evening. I wrote a squidoo lens, yes, but it was without passion – and I am afraid, it read like that.

I took up my blog posting rhythm, but I was not passionate about it. I did it because I thought I had to, and in some way I wanted to, but the passionate flame of creativity was not blowing.

And on top of it all, I did not know what was wrong.

Until yesterday. I had a chat with a virtual Squidoo friend, and we talked about creativity and this feeling of hanging around, having no goals. It was only after the chat that things got clearer for me.

So the big question is: Where’s my passion and what are my goals?

I am still in the process of sorting things out. This blog has been a place for me to tell – tell stories about my daily life in Berlin, to tell you something about me (that’s why it is still called Ulla Hennig’s Weblog). I am still here, Berlin is still here and there are still stories to be told. “Sit down and tell them”, says my inner friend, with a friendly slap on my shoulder, “there are people interested in reading them.” “Thanks, inner friend”, “I will.”

And there’s Squidoo. I know where my passions and my interests are – in music, art and culture. I created some pretty good webpages on that field (“Yes, my inner friend, I am able to brag without blushing”). So I’ll continue to go in that direction, in my own speed, without pressure, but with some ideas already. I will keep you posted.