First of all, the difference between my inner artist and my inner designer is, that my inner designer thinks of certain products to put her art on, and my inner artist is not thinking of any products when she is doing art. I don’t know whether this is the proper definition, but it is my definition.
In the past either the inner designer existed or the inner artist.
There has been a time when my inner designer was very active, and then suddenly my inner artist woke up and pushed the designer away. She pushed her away because she felt limited in her art if she always had to think of the final product. She wanted to try out things, to draw sketches. She discovered digital painting, loved it but at the same time knew that it would take a long time before she could think of using the results of her learning processes for creating any designs.
At the moment I am writing these lines the designer has come back. She came back because the artist is struggling with her new tool, the graphic tablet. Or, to say it more precisely: The inner artist is rather desperate and thinks she’ll never learn to cope with the darned thing. So she was on the way to retire. The designer smiles. She’s discovered a way to create nice designs with photoshop, and it is wonderful to do things when you’ve got the feeling that you can do it.
And there’s an inner me who’s watching all this, and trying to sort things out. “You are putting yourself under too much pressure,” she says to the inner artist. “You wanted to do something which you could show in your blog post, instead of giving yourself the necessary time to get used to the tablet. You can do exercises with the brush and the colours and whatever, and you don’t have to show them to the public. Take it easy, man.”
And then the inner me turns around to the designer and says: “There’s nothing bad in doing the things you are capable to do. As long as you don’t get bored and still have fun – why not do it in an easy way?”
The inner designer and the inner artist look at each other. They now know that they can exist at the same time, in peace.
The original title of the book is “Bold Visions”, and Gary Tonge published it 2008.
I was looking for a book about digital painting with Photoshop and found this one. I ordered it via E-mail and fetched it today from the library. When I arrived at home I could not resist from browsing through the pages and looking at the excellent photos.
Of course I’ve already found lots of tutorials about digital painting on the web, including some very instructive ones on Youtube.
However there is a difference between reading tutorials online and turning the pages of a real book. I felt like a child going through some picture book, captivated by the vividness and aesthetic quality of the pictures.
Those kind of “real” books are quite expensive. Sometimes you buy such an expensive book and are disappointed when you’ve got it in your hands. Here in Berlin we pay 10 Euros a year and can go to every public library. There’s an online catalogue and we can order via e-mail.
Due to being an internet citizen I learnt about the intention of the British government to close down libraries. It made me realize how well off we are here in Berlin at the moment, and how important it is that we have a working system of public libraries. I think I’ve fallen in love with my library again…
On Friday I wrote a post about one of my resolutions for 2011, “just do it!”. Today I will deal with my second resolution:
Don’t limit yourself!
You probably ask what that painting has to do with my resolution. Well, it is just an example. It has been colored in Photoshop, but not with the tool everybody would use – the brush tool. I did use other tools – the pen tool and the smudge tool.
I don’t want to get too much into the details here, but I had that idea in my mind, that without having a wacom graphic tablet it would be easier to define colour spaces with the pen-tool. Most tutorials on coloring in Photoshop mention the paint brush, but I simply thought it could be done in an other way and went for a try. I didn’t limit myself, so to speak.
You can apply that motto to various aspects of daily life. You are coming home after a hard work day and you look on your list with household chores. Instead of thinking “I’ll never be able to do this!” – don’t limit yourself. Sometimes I wonder how many things and what sort of things I am able to do. One morning I entered my bathroom in the usual half awake state and tried to put on the light. WHAM! The bulb in the bathroom somehow had decided to call it a day. I stood there, feeling helpless. I hadn’t come to my senses yet, how should I be able to change the darned thing? Then “Don’t limit yourself!” came to my mind, I fetched a new bulb and after 15 minutes the problem was solved.
Do you have a motto or more than one for 2011 and might share it here?
It’s almost the end of January 2011 and time for a review on the first month of the new year.
In the first days of January I decided to cling to two mottos:
- Just do it
- Don’t limit yourself
I will deal with the second one in my next blog post. Today I’ll tell you why “Just do it” has become so important for me.
It is strange, but at work I am quite good at organising projects. Last Monday I had a presentation about the basics of Search Engine Optimization, and everything went fine, including the coffee and the cookies.
Regarding my private projects it is a bit different. I manage blogging thrice a week here on this blog, but often I sit in front of the white screen and have only a very vague idea of what I am going to say or present. Other people have editorial plans – not me. But as I said before, I manage to get those posts published.
Regarding my household chores it was hugely different. I must admit that in 2010 I neglected them considerably, and when my cousin came to stay with me in June it took me a whole week to get the flat presentable. At the beginning of 2011 I decided to have a change. And now, on the 28th of January 2011, I can say that up to now I have been successful.
What did I do?
- I reactivated my toodledo-account.
- I wrote down only the tasks I thought I could do on a day. I knew that I would not like to do household chores after work and before a social evening with friends, so I didn’t schedule anything on those days.
- But: Once I had written down a task like swiffing the bathroom floor I told myself: “Just do it!” I tied back my hair into a ponytail, imagined myself being a dust and dirt fighter and attacked the floor or whatever had to be cleaned.
- So far I have been successful, and my home has reached a presentable state. You won’t be able to eat from the floor – but who wants to do that?
It has become a habit now, and one I really love to do: doing at least one sketch a day. The paper I use for those sketches is being printed upon on one side (as you can see in the photo), so I’ve got no problems when a sketch goes wrong.
What I like on this sketch is the expression on the face. This is not a hero’s face–it’s the face of someone who is surprised, wondering, looking at the world around him with big wide open eyes. He’s not a young man, and not a very good looking one, too. He’s just the type of man you would find if you go out of your house and into the next shop… He’s human.
Christmas is definitely over, but I’ve still got this red candle with Christmas decorations on my table. As long as the days are short and the nights creep in so fast in the afternoon I will keep all my candles, be they christmas-y or not. Light the candles, sip a glas of delicious red wine, listen to some classical music and read a good book – that’s it!
Today is the 6th of December, and that is “The Day of St. Nicholas” in Germany. The evening before this day children put their boots out and hope, that they will get filled with sweets and little presents.
There’s quite a difference between St. Nicholas and Santa Claus. St. Nicholas was a bishop, and so on older paintings or cards he is presented in a bishop’s robe. There’s not much jolliness around him–he carries a sack and a birch–the sack with the presents for the “good” children, and the birch for the bad ones. And he carries a book with him which is full of the good deeds and the acts of misbehaviour. So the 6th of December has not only been a day of happiness for children in the former days in Germany…
Nowadays Santa Claus has replaced St. Nicholas to a certain extent.
By the way, if you want to read more about St. Nicholas, go there.
It is December now, and in a short time the year will come to an end. So I think the time has come to look back and do some year review.
In 2010 I changed my focus considerably. 2009 had been the year of Squidoo activities. I still remember running for Giant (which meant for me writing about 40 lenses in 3 months). I made it, but I felt like running a Marathon, almost breaking down on the last kilometers or miles. I also remember feeling burnt out and not wanting to write any Squidoo lens anymore!
And then, after having recovered somewhat, I discovered Zazzle for me. Well, I had signed up for Zazzle in October 2009, but had not done anything with the shop. The main reason was fear–that I would never be good enough for showing my products to the whole world. But from March 2010 on I overcame that fear and just did it. First I created things with my photos, and then–well, I discovered the world of Adobe Illustrator, Photoshop and Digital Design in general. I played around, and created things and put them online, and: THE FIRST SALE!
I will never forget the first sale, a cute busy bee made with Inskape (the free alternative software to Adobe Illustrator) on an apron. I was so happy! And of course, got a lot of energy and motivation and confidence from the sale.
Then my summer vacations arrived, and I had planned them to be creative vacations. I managed to put my plans into practice: I began to draw, to paint. I discovered the world of art. It was so much fun, and when the vacations were over I decided to continue with my creative activities even during the work week. I began to write a creative journal to jot down ideas, next steps, experiences.
I even used my art pieces to create products on Zazzle. Sometimes my inner critic told me that I should stop it, spamming the world with my unworthy products. But my inner creative me told her to shut up…
From autumn on I became a member on deviantart.com and I must admit, I spend a lot of time there, looking at other people’s galleries, reading or looking at tutorials, uploading my own art (OMG, am I saying “art”?), commenting. And just now I am into colored pencils. Colored pencils in Germany are for kids only–they are not looked upon as having the same value as water colours, oil and acrylic paints. I noticed however, that some great artists in the U.S.A. or in the United Kingdom are creating awesome pieces of art with them, and that there are some wonderful books about colored pencil art. (Amazon, here I come!)
So yes, my focus changed. It was a year full of discoveries, adventures, new paths. And what about 2011? I will keep you posted!
It is the first day of my vacation. After doing some work on the internet in the morning (I began to work on a cute little devil for my Halloween products – not finished yet!) I went around the corner to the Italian restaurant in order to have some aglio and olio (garlic and oil pasta).
They have a nice patio and while I am waiting for the waiter to come I have a look around and I am taking in my surroundings. How many different shades of green there are, depending from where the sun comes. There’s a light breeze, and the leaves are dancing in it.
I look up to the sky, and I wonder how intensive the color of blue can be. It is the blue of a typical summer day, and here and there you can see some fluffy white clouds.
Then I try to focus on the various noises: the restaurant is near to a busy street, and I hear the cars rushing by. Whamm, whamm, whamm – a big truck, but empty truck is passing by. Some doves are goo-gooing near by, and there’s the sound of plates clattering when the waiter fetches the empty plates and carries them to the kitchen.
The scent of pizzas is in the air, combined with that of garlic.
I observe and I absorbe and take in.
I am writing this post on a Sunday. This Sunday from 10 am until 3 pm I have been standing at the information counter in one of the old buildings of the Berlin University of the Arts. Every year at the end of term the university opens the doors for the interested public – young students coming from the secondary schools, people from abroad who are interested in continuing their studies in Berlin or older citizens who want to know about the newest development in the arts.
On Friday and today I had the joy of helping those people to find their ways through one of our oldest buildings. It is the place where Fine Arts and Architecture is taught, and just now we have a big exhibition of our Meisterschüler classes (“Meisterschüler” are students who finished their studies but have done so well that they carry on with their studies for one year).
In those five hours I had to answer all sort of questions: “Where are the toilets” (a question very often asked), “what can I do in this house?”, “where is room soandso?” and so on. Most of the people did not leave the space in front of the counter without a big smile on their face and a big thank you on their lips. Sometimes I got the impression that the experience of being helped in a friendly way was something extraordinary for them, that they were not used to it.
I remember myself how often I missed that experience of being served in a competent and friendly manner. Every time I was met by someone who smiled at me and helped me – answered my questions, helped me to buy clothes in which I looked good – I was extremely happy, and the happy feeling helped me over the rest of the day.
Germany is often named as a “service desert” – a place where service and serving other people is not known anymore. We can rant about it, but the better way is to do it better oneself.